I can’t believe that we celebrated the twins second birthday.  It was not in as grand a style as last year (many fewer guests) but had a very nice time just the same.  We went out for lunch with Grandma and Grandpa and Great-Grandma Connie (aged 95) and then back to the house for cake (Elmo of course), ice cream and baloons.  The kids did manage to not nap all day which was not a great sign for the rest of the evening.

We are still havin sleep issues and hubby and I are at odds on how to handle it.  We are at odds on a lot of things.

I rarely have time to sit down and write a post.  It seems these days I have less and less time to do much of anything outside of laundry, childcare, cooking, cleaning and trying to stay sane.  I am taking another yoga class to try to reel my mind and sanity back in.

But here it is….

two years later…..

and these two little people have moved in and taken over.

and I wouldn’t change one minute of it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABIES!

Well, I got up this morning and did my hair, despite the forecasters warning that today would not be a good hair day.  Hey, at least I tried.  I am not sitting in my parent’s living room wearing a visor that I am pretty sure my nephew left here.  I arrived at my parent house in a deluge of some of the heaviest rain I have seen in a long time.  Well, the hair couldn’t be saved…..

My parents are driving to Massachusetts and I am sitting with my Grandmother.  It is really kind of sad.  It seems like she is just sitting around waiting to die.  She asked me earlier if these “were my kids?”  Ummm, yeah….These are my kids, Grandma…….I mean…she is 95 but seems to be fading faster and faster all the time.  I don’t ever want to get that old.

Meanwhile,  I am still trying to figure out how to get all the movies of the babies off of my harddrive on my video camera.  I want to burn them to DVD.  So far, I haven’t had much luck.

Tomorrow, I am having an electrician (friend) come in to install the ceiling fan.  The hubby took one look at it and it was “over his head” and he didn’t want to short out the rest of the house.  Electricity has never been his strong suit.  I remember one time when we were first dating and he was talking to me on the phone while trying to wire some lights in the basement.  Well, something went buzz and he flew halfway across the basement, while I was on the phone with him.

Yeah…..

We did go to Dorney Park and had a good time.  The kids enjoyed it.  The hubby, not so much.  He doesn’t like rides. so he spent most of the day holding the bags of stuff that we dragged around instead of paying $15 to rent a locker for 4 hours…….but I did manage to get some sun, and am sporting some tan lines for the first time this year.

okay…the heat index is 105 degrees.  This is nuts!  It is too hot to do ANYTHING!  I did manage to get 30 minutes of Wii in this morning, but that was only because I had the fan and the air condtioner blowing directly on me.

The good news is that my parents are on their way back from Maine.  My niece and nephew and the hubby and I are going to Dorney Park and Wildwater kingdom on Wednesday.  Tonight, the hubby will be going to the doctor’s appointment with me…to talk about my ppd or whatever it is……and is off tomorrow.  We are going to “Rice’s Market” ( a kind of huge flea market) up in Bucks County early in the morning and then installing a new ceiling fan when we get back.  It is going to be so nice to have the free babysitting services of my parents again…..

Major bummer….I just opened a can of diet pepsi and it is flat….yuck!  Do I call Pepsi and gripe?  Maybe……

Yesterday was the 7th anniversary of when the hubby and I got together…someday I will have to write down the whole story, but will password protect it…….it’s not what you think at all………it is really bizarre.

Anyway, trying not to melt…….the kids just want to play outside, but like the title of this post….it’s too damn hot!

I got 14….count them….14 hours sleep last night.  Talk about feeling refreshed.  My wonderful hubby stayed up with the kids and I got to go to bed at 5:30pm.  It was fabulous!  He even cleaned up the living room! 

The kids slept all night, and got up arounf 7 or so.  To thank the huuby, who is at work today, I loaded up the kids and ran through Dunkin’ Donuts and picked up 2 dozen donuts for the crew.  I think they really appreciated it.  It is a long hot day for them, and nothing works like sugar to keep you going.  I behaved…I only ate the chocolate one….well, me and Melissa shared the chocolate one.

I did almost 40 minutes of Wii fit this morning….including running, which I am not that fond of, but did okay.  I mean, my thought was always, why would you run when you can drive? 

It’s a darn good day so far……………….

yeah, so despite going to the park yesterday to tucker the kids out, they woke up at 12:30 and then at 1 am for no real good reason.  Then, they decided that it was the perfect time to run and play…until 3 am.  Then poof! back to bed without a fuss.

I’m wiped.  I just cleaned bathrooms at Mom and Dad’s house, and mopped the kitchen floor with my little “helpers”.  At least my parents will get to come home to clean house, that is more than my hubby can say most days.

And way back when, we started a garden…..well, what managed to survive is doing great.  We are going to have a TON of tomatos.  And we have several nice poblano peppers growing and even a few anaheim peppers (it was a mystery plant that I bought).  The peppers were started a little when we got them, so I am not going to take too much credit for them….but the roma tomatos were started as seeds on my kitchen windowsill.  And they are going nuts!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I can’t wait to try them.  There are going to be a lot of mexican food being cooked around here…….

I wii fit -ed for 40 minutes last night…..but alas, today….I just don’t have the energy……could it be lack of sleep?

And the weather is going to be absolute crap today.  So, the kids are stuck in the house.  Yesterday, we went out to play at least three times and poof…they went to bed without a fuss, and SLEPT ALL NIGHT!  It was great.  I got to sleep in until after 8 am….that in itself is a friggin’ miracle.  There is nothing better than getting to wake up on my own….no noise, no alarm, no hubby (he left for work at 3 am…taking my car, since his wouldn’t start), and then getting the babies up without having to pick up poop everywhere.

I have an appointment to see my GP on Monday night.  He wants to talk about my ppd meds.  I am sure he is going to try to ween me off but I know that I am not ready.  I actually do better and feel better on a higher dose.  I guess I was supposed to go back in December, but I don’t remember him telling me that.  I emailed in a prescription refill request and one of the nurses called back to say he needed to see me.  Okay….so….I will go.  My life is no easier than it was last fall.  As a matter of fact, it may just be more difficult and I have not developed the coping skills to keep everything in check all the time with the twins.

My parents return from Maine on Monday too……..YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I miss them.  My entire family is in Maine right now, and I am stuck here. Boo hoo…….  Maybe next year we will be brave and take the kids. (not likely!)

I am still freecycling like a madwoman….but I am getting rid of lots of stuff.  Oh and I am still Wii-ing.  I love it!  It is my guilty pleasure.

I did get some pictures of the kids yesterday….they are getting so big!!!

2 kids with viruses.  2 trips to the ER.  Countless loads of poopy laundry.  Hubby with a cold (BIG GIANT WUSS!)….that is pretty much what is keeping me from blogging.  Poop, poop and more poop.

Oh….and my parents are on vacation in  Old Orchard Beach, Maine….until the middle of August.

I turn 35 on Saturday…and I feel like I am pushing 70…..can’t remember the last time I got 8 hours of sleep…..

Oh…and Melissa is in her “I refuse to wear clothing…including a diaper” phase……

I am simply amazed at the efficiency that my children have in completly destroying my house.

Bear with me….I will eventually get this all sorted out and start posting regularly again…..

hopefully.

It has just been a rough week here.  Yesterday went pretty well.  I seemed to have an unusual amount of energy and got a lot done (tons of laundry, sorting winter kid clothes, etc)….Today, not so much.  Maybe I just stayed up too late last night.  Maybe it is because we haven’t seen the sun here in days.  Maybe it is because Daniel and Melissa are running everywhere, getting into everything, climbing, screaming, hair pulling, tormenting the dogs, etc…..oh to have their energy for just one day.

My parents come home tomorrow.  I am so happy.  I am going to hit the grocery store for my mother so it is one less thing for her to worry about when they get home.  They are bringing my neice and nephew with them.  The kids will go back home in July.  Boy, I can’t wait until it is my turn to have the kids stay at Grandma and Grandpa’s house for 2 + weeks. Imagine my sparkling clean house, the return of sanity, the idea of actually sleeping in……but alas, that is years away……  My hubby has volunteered to teach my 9 year old nephew to ride a bike.  Yeah, 9 years old……What the heck?  We are also planning on going to the Crayola factory and to the Please Touch Museum while they are visiting.  We thought about doing Sesame Place, but not at $52 per person and $15 to park…..um….how do I say this…..no thank you……I can find something else to do with $200+  not including food.

But at least my parents will be home.  I feel terrible for my Mother.  She has been sleeping (or trying to sleep rather) on a futon mattress for the last 2 weeks.  She has bursitis in her hip and now has been diagnosed with arthritis in her spine.  She is going to our favorite orthopaedist in July….(I secretly want to see the doctor…..he’s completely HOT).  We call him Dr. Mc Cutie…….that pre-dates any McSteamy or McDreamy……. So Mom will be back on vicodin for the pain.  It is yet another reason for her to really take her dieting seriously.

Well, at least I got something done today….I blogged.  Oh, and I got a shower….Oh, and I watched Animal Cops in South Africa.  Wow!  How beautiful is that place!  It is on my list of places to visit someday!  now I just need to figure out what to feed the family for supper.  It is not going to be a late night for me.  I am determined to get up tomorrow, go to the gym, doing the shopping for Mom, and try to relax with the hubs and kids.  Oh crap…………need to get father’s day cards…….crap crap crap……..I guess that means I have to get him breakfast in bed on Sunday.  Lucky me.

I meant to say crazy.  I just put up with a 45 minute long temper tantrum from both kids, Daniel broke the wooden holder for the coasters, I superglues it back together, super gluing my fingers to each other and the wooden holder, made potato salad, broke up three hair pulling “incidents”……..

Seriously….I might need to seek professional help…..

Oh yeah, and I getto take a soggy wet dog to get shaved down.  Did I mention that our appointment is at 5pm?  Yeah, so I get to sit in traffic too.

Lucky me.

Yeah, my life is soooo boring.

But sometimes, they are cute…….not today….but sometimes!

The kids slept through the night.  Without a middle of the night bottle.  I am so proud of them.  And I think I know what did it.  They have full run of Grandma and Grandpa’s house.  They are expending tons of energy.  And yesterday, They only each got a cat nap.

They are in baby jail right now, and they are “lounging”. I think they are still tired. (tee hee hee).

I spent the day at my parent’s house yesterday.  The kitchen remodeler was here.  I sure wish they would have told me that they were taking out my kitchen sinkon the first day.    have planned things a little differently.  So, I will be using plastic or paper cups since I really don’t want to wash dishes in the bathtub.  I will take the kids’ bottles to my parent’s house and run them through the dishwasher.  I also do not have any counter tops, or drawers, or doors on my cabinets.  The kitchen just looks weird…..

The hubby has decided to stay out in North Dakota until Friday.  My father in law is still hanging in there.  They had him on some kind of “CPAP” thing and had him intubated.  They took him off of that yesterday and the old man sat up out of bed.  He is just on oxygenthrough a nasal cannula right now.  He keeps stretching his arms out for hugs.  He pointed right at the hubby so at least there is some degree of recognition and appropriate response.  The doctors still don’t know what is going on.  They want to watch him for another day or two, and then they will see how he is doing.

The best part of all of this, if there is a positive, is that the hubby is seeing family that he hasn’t seen in 20 years.  He reconnecting with a family that he pretty much walked away from.  He is the only one that made it out.  Everyone else stayed.  And there is nothing wrong with that, I guess.   I just can’t imagine having the whole world out there, and staying in Fargo my entire life.  I have been blessed that I was able to travel when I was young, and then as part of a job, and on my own as a hobby.  I have been to the UK, Mexico, and Canada.  I have been to 49 of the 50 states.  I have been there and done that and I have no regrets.

But I miss my hubby.  I didn’t sleep well at all the last two nights.  I might even miss his snoring.  It is just not the same when he isn’t around.  He did call me about a dozen times yesterday….I can’t wait to pick him up at the airport and give him the biggest hug.  I feel very helpless right now when it comes to finding ways to support him.

I am hanging in there.  All the prayers and well wishes are greatly appreciated.

Oh…. and here are some pictures of the kitchen so far…..