By Some Miracle….It has happened…..

My children, yes…the twinkies, who despite their parents breaking all the rules, have started to sleep all night……

Holy Crap!

A week ago, our bed was filled up with the hubby and I and the two kids and no one was getting any sleep.  So, we took the advice (finally) of practically everyone around us, and kept the kids up until 8 pm.  Poof!

Duh!  Smaller bottles before bed = kids that aren’t in need of diapers in the middle of the night.

Hard to believe that we went to college.  Hard to believe that it took us this long to figure it out. 

Well, there is some degree if Ferberizing (CIO or Cry It Out) going on, but that is more because I am just too bloody exhausted to get out of bed the 15th time they cry.

So….life is pretty good.

Oh yeah….and in case anyone forgot……MY Philadelphia Phillies  ARE IN THE WORLD SERIES……AGAIN!  Thanks to my favorite guy…. Jayson Werth……the sweetest hiney in the MLB today…….

Melissa continues to enjoy her state of “au natural”…..she just hates wearing clothes…….

Daniel continues to sing the ABC song…on key…well, not the actual letters, but Da Da, Da Da, Da Da Da……(yes, it is okay to sing that to Twinkle Twinkle Little Star).

We have yet to get a pumpkin.  We have yet to get a pile of leaves together for the kids, but….we do have costumes for trick or treating…….Pebbles and Bam Bam from the Flintstones…… and we are still debating if we let Daniel carry the club around with him…….

I got my flu shot and was hoping to get shots for the kids, but low and behold, my pediatrician’s office was out of them.  So now we are on a waiting list.  Great!  And this is just the regular flu shot….not the dreaded H1N1 vaccination.

I am seriously going to make the effort to blog more and spend less time of facebook… since I am an addict…. and really think they need to start facebook addiction groups.  I mean, a day without Farkle is like a day without sunshine.

So it is Monday again.  Finally, after 4 days of rain and wind, we have some sunshine.  I also have my house back.  The hubby had been off work since Thursday….and honestly, was starting to bug the crap out of me.  I know that he can’t help “ordering me around” and “instructing me on how to care for the children”…it’s the 24 years of army in him.  But sheesh….what does he think I do all day?

We are getting more and more interested in the potty….we are also increasing our vocabulary by leaps and bounds.  That means they can say poop…and crack up laughing hysterically.

Melissa loves to dance.  Daniel loves to spin and get dizzy and fall down.  It’s a real show around here some days.

I know that my challenges have just really begun…I mean the “terrible twos” challenge.  I am still not sure how I am going to deal with it….I guess I just have to take it one day at a time.  That is, if I can keep my brain from melting from Sesame Street and Barney overload.  Elmo is a demi god in this house…..It is Elmo on demand all day….

 My Philadelphia Phillies kicked some L.A. Dodger hiney last night….of course, I was too tired to actually watch it.  I did get to see my boy, Jayson Werth hit his dinger……so that made up for an otherwise crappy day.  I don’t even want to talk about the Philadelphia Eagles performance against the Raiders.

But I am alive.   All plans for going back to school are on hold.  I am treading water even with my parents being so close by.  Just maintaining the house, the laundry, the kids, the dogs, the shopping….well…..it’s enough for me.  What was I thinking considering taking a part time job?

And we got our new shed….about 6 weeks ago, my mother drove into our shed and totalled it.  So, her auto insurance covered a new shed.  It was delivered on Thursday.  Now, the hubby should have his little man cave to keep all his tools and crap in.

But that is my life….very boring, very routine-driven.  Very tiring, but some days, very rewarding.

I can’t believe that we celebrated the twins second birthday.  It was not in as grand a style as last year (many fewer guests) but had a very nice time just the same.  We went out for lunch with Grandma and Grandpa and Great-Grandma Connie (aged 95) and then back to the house for cake (Elmo of course), ice cream and baloons.  The kids did manage to not nap all day which was not a great sign for the rest of the evening.

We are still havin sleep issues and hubby and I are at odds on how to handle it.  We are at odds on a lot of things.

I rarely have time to sit down and write a post.  It seems these days I have less and less time to do much of anything outside of laundry, childcare, cooking, cleaning and trying to stay sane.  I am taking another yoga class to try to reel my mind and sanity back in.

But here it is….

two years later…..

and these two little people have moved in and taken over.

and I wouldn’t change one minute of it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABIES!

Yes, I am still alive.  No, I didn’t take the job.  yes, I am completely obsessed with my wii.  I am the worst blogger ever.

I think about bloggin but am so caught up in what the kids are doing that I never seem to find the time anymore.  I meanm I have to watch the kids like a hawk….they get into EVERYTHING!

The summer flew by, We are into fall…..I love the fall, but it makes it difficult to get the kids outside to let them burn off some energy.  Also, our backyard is a huge mess thanks to my mother driving into our shed.  The hubby and a coouple of halpers tore the shed apart this past weekend and yesterday I paid $450 for someone to haul the debris away.  I only feel alittle ripped off.  We are having another shed built and it should be deivered in the next two weeks.

Rhe kids are good.  Melissa is a chatterbox.  Daniel is vocalizing and occasionally says a word that I can understand.  They are still not the best sleepers……..(am I ever going to get any sleep?).

They are good kids.  They are funny.  Such distinct personalities….but beware of the monkey see monkey do thing.

We also started the potty training thing with Melissa.  She peed in the regular potty once for us……but has yet to go on her pink throne.

I am going to try to write more regularly.  I have lost 15 lbs since the 1st of August (my 35th b-day) and now feel better if I skip a day of training.

I don’t know who is still reading out there….but I am here….I am back….

So, I sought out a job.  I interviewed and was hired on the spot.  It isn’t much.  Working in the mailroom at a famous catalog company that sells a lot of “As Seen On TV” stuff.  It is temporary.  It is part time.  My mother has agreed to watch the kids during the four hours I work Monday through Friday.

So, why am I not excited?  Why do I want to call them and decline their offer (the day before I start)?  Why am I doubting my abilities?  Why am I convinced that something bad will happen?

I have asked friends (via facebook, of course) what they think and everyone is telling me to give it a try.

But I feel like I have so much on my plate now.

I am on a new medication on top of the pro.zac and we still don’t know how that is going to work.  I am having good and “very” bad days.  The kids are full on crazy most of the time.  My house is like a 25 lb bag stuffed with 50 lbs of crap….and I am still giving stuff away on freecycle.org (including 2 double strollers this week alone).

Maybe it is because I have been out of work for more than two years.  Maybe it is that I just needed to know that I “could” get a job.

I am so confused and don’t know what my next move should be.  Do I have what it takes to work again and still try to raise my babies, keep my house clean, cook for all of us and keep my husband happy?

Any thoughts?  Anyone still reading?  I know, I am the worst blogger ever……

Well, I got up this morning and did my hair, despite the forecasters warning that today would not be a good hair day.  Hey, at least I tried.  I am not sitting in my parent’s living room wearing a visor that I am pretty sure my nephew left here.  I arrived at my parent house in a deluge of some of the heaviest rain I have seen in a long time.  Well, the hair couldn’t be saved…..

My parents are driving to Massachusetts and I am sitting with my Grandmother.  It is really kind of sad.  It seems like she is just sitting around waiting to die.  She asked me earlier if these “were my kids?”  Ummm, yeah….These are my kids, Grandma…….I mean…she is 95 but seems to be fading faster and faster all the time.  I don’t ever want to get that old.

Meanwhile,  I am still trying to figure out how to get all the movies of the babies off of my harddrive on my video camera.  I want to burn them to DVD.  So far, I haven’t had much luck.

Tomorrow, I am having an electrician (friend) come in to install the ceiling fan.  The hubby took one look at it and it was “over his head” and he didn’t want to short out the rest of the house.  Electricity has never been his strong suit.  I remember one time when we were first dating and he was talking to me on the phone while trying to wire some lights in the basement.  Well, something went buzz and he flew halfway across the basement, while I was on the phone with him.

Yeah…..

We did go to Dorney Park and had a good time.  The kids enjoyed it.  The hubby, not so much.  He doesn’t like rides. so he spent most of the day holding the bags of stuff that we dragged around instead of paying $15 to rent a locker for 4 hours…….but I did manage to get some sun, and am sporting some tan lines for the first time this year.

okay…the heat index is 105 degrees.  This is nuts!  It is too hot to do ANYTHING!  I did manage to get 30 minutes of Wii in this morning, but that was only because I had the fan and the air condtioner blowing directly on me.

The good news is that my parents are on their way back from Maine.  My niece and nephew and the hubby and I are going to Dorney Park and Wildwater kingdom on Wednesday.  Tonight, the hubby will be going to the doctor’s appointment with me…to talk about my ppd or whatever it is……and is off tomorrow.  We are going to “Rice’s Market” ( a kind of huge flea market) up in Bucks County early in the morning and then installing a new ceiling fan when we get back.  It is going to be so nice to have the free babysitting services of my parents again…..

Major bummer….I just opened a can of diet pepsi and it is flat….yuck!  Do I call Pepsi and gripe?  Maybe……

Yesterday was the 7th anniversary of when the hubby and I got together…someday I will have to write down the whole story, but will password protect it…….it’s not what you think at all………it is really bizarre.

Anyway, trying not to melt…….the kids just want to play outside, but like the title of this post….it’s too damn hot!

I got 14….count them….14 hours sleep last night.  Talk about feeling refreshed.  My wonderful hubby stayed up with the kids and I got to go to bed at 5:30pm.  It was fabulous!  He even cleaned up the living room! 

The kids slept all night, and got up arounf 7 or so.  To thank the huuby, who is at work today, I loaded up the kids and ran through Dunkin’ Donuts and picked up 2 dozen donuts for the crew.  I think they really appreciated it.  It is a long hot day for them, and nothing works like sugar to keep you going.  I behaved…I only ate the chocolate one….well, me and Melissa shared the chocolate one.

I did almost 40 minutes of Wii fit this morning….including running, which I am not that fond of, but did okay.  I mean, my thought was always, why would you run when you can drive? 

It’s a darn good day so far……………….

yeah, so despite going to the park yesterday to tucker the kids out, they woke up at 12:30 and then at 1 am for no real good reason.  Then, they decided that it was the perfect time to run and play…until 3 am.  Then poof! back to bed without a fuss.

I’m wiped.  I just cleaned bathrooms at Mom and Dad’s house, and mopped the kitchen floor with my little “helpers”.  At least my parents will get to come home to clean house, that is more than my hubby can say most days.

And way back when, we started a garden…..well, what managed to survive is doing great.  We are going to have a TON of tomatos.  And we have several nice poblano peppers growing and even a few anaheim peppers (it was a mystery plant that I bought).  The peppers were started a little when we got them, so I am not going to take too much credit for them….but the roma tomatos were started as seeds on my kitchen windowsill.  And they are going nuts!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I can’t wait to try them.  There are going to be a lot of mexican food being cooked around here…….

I wii fit -ed for 40 minutes last night…..but alas, today….I just don’t have the energy……could it be lack of sleep?

And the weather is going to be absolute crap today.  So, the kids are stuck in the house.  Yesterday, we went out to play at least three times and poof…they went to bed without a fuss, and SLEPT ALL NIGHT!  It was great.  I got to sleep in until after 8 am….that in itself is a friggin’ miracle.  There is nothing better than getting to wake up on my own….no noise, no alarm, no hubby (he left for work at 3 am…taking my car, since his wouldn’t start), and then getting the babies up without having to pick up poop everywhere.

I have an appointment to see my GP on Monday night.  He wants to talk about my ppd meds.  I am sure he is going to try to ween me off but I know that I am not ready.  I actually do better and feel better on a higher dose.  I guess I was supposed to go back in December, but I don’t remember him telling me that.  I emailed in a prescription refill request and one of the nurses called back to say he needed to see me.  Okay….so….I will go.  My life is no easier than it was last fall.  As a matter of fact, it may just be more difficult and I have not developed the coping skills to keep everything in check all the time with the twins.

My parents return from Maine on Monday too……..YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I miss them.  My entire family is in Maine right now, and I am stuck here. Boo hoo…….  Maybe next year we will be brave and take the kids. (not likely!)

I am still freecycling like a madwoman….but I am getting rid of lots of stuff.  Oh and I am still Wii-ing.  I love it!  It is my guilty pleasure.

I did get some pictures of the kids yesterday….they are getting so big!!!