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The Smirk
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Despite the hubby being in a crappy mood and Daniel being cranky with the whole teething thing and both kids being down with a stomach flu this week, for some “strange” reason, I am in a really, really good mood today.  I mean the kind of mood where you walk around with a smirk on your face and a “Kiss My Butt” swagger.  Yeah, that is exactly where I am right now.  Smirking……imagine that!  Ask yourself….when was the last time you smirked?  Or swaggered around?  Well, ladies, it has been far too long for me.  I should have entitled this post “How Kari Got Her Groove Back” but that might give too much away…..and that is all I am going to say about that….and no, it is not caffeine induced…I have moved on to the Folgers 1/2 caff coffee…..

I had a nice visit at mom and dad’s last night for chicken casserole, and then was back over early this afternoon and pigged out on McDonalds.  So much for the diet.  I have been really good since I put on the 10 lbs over Thanksgiving and Christmas.   Food is huge for my family during the holidays…and how can you say no?  But I am back on track….no more cheating…..back to my egg white and tomato omelette in the morning…..yup….swearing off the carbs….. (let’s see how long this lasts!!!! LOL).

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The kids slept through the night.  Without a middle of the night bottle.  I am so proud of them.  And I think I know what did it.  They have full run of Grandma and Grandpa‘s house.  They are expending tons of energy.  And yesterday, They only each got a cat nap.

They are in baby jail right now, and they are “lounging”. I think they are still tired. (tee hee hee).

I spent the day at my parent’s house yesterday.  The kitchen remodeler was here.  I sure wish they would have told me that they were taking out my kitchen sinkon the first day.    have planned things a little differently.  So, I will be using plastic or paper cups since I really don’t want to wash dishes in the bathtub.  I will take the kids’ bottles to my parent’s house and run them through the dishwasher.  I also do not have any counter tops, or drawers, or doors on my cabinets.  The kitchen just looks weird…..

The hubby has decided to stay out in North Dakota until Friday.  My father in law is still hanging in there.  They had him on some kind of “CPAP” thing and had him intubated.  They took him off of that yesterday and the old man sat up out of bed.  He is just on oxygenthrough a nasal cannula right now.  He keeps stretching his arms out for hugs.  He pointed right at the hubby so at least there is some degree of recognition and appropriate response.  The doctors still don’t know what is going on.  They want to watch him for another day or two, and then they will see how he is doing.

The best part of all of this, if there is a positive, is that the hubby is seeing family that he hasn’t seen in 20 years.  He reconnecting with a family that he pretty much walked away from.  He is the only one that made it out.  Everyone else stayed.  And there is nothing wrong with that, I guess.   I just can’t imagine having the whole world out there, and staying in Fargo my entire life.  I have been blessed that I was able to travel when I was young, and then as part of a job, and on my own as a hobby.  I have been to the UK, Mexico, and Canada.  I have been to 49 of the 50 states.  I have been there and done that and I have no regrets.

But I miss my hubby.  I didn’t sleep well at all the last two nights.  I might even miss his snoring.  It is just not the same when he isn’t around.  He did call me about a dozen times yesterday….I can’t wait to pick him up at the airport and give him the biggest hug.  I feel very helpless right now when it comes to finding ways to support him.

I am hanging in there.  All the prayers and well wishes are greatly appreciated.

Oh…. and here are some pictures of the kitchen so far…..

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The trip to the gym was great!  The kids did great…except for Melissa bonking Daniel in the head with a toy.  But that is kind of par for the course.

Yoga last night was great too.  I felt great when I got home.  The hubby had fed and bathed and bedded the kids.  Wow!  What a great surprise!

This morning, I got up and went to a Mommy Market and the hubby got the kids up and fed and changed them and was playing with them when I got home.

Since the weather is so nice, we are planning on taking the kids on a walk over to the park a little later and then out to eat at old.country.buffet, where kids under 2 eat free…..(tee hee hee…if it’s free….it’s for me!)

Everyone is napping right now, the hubby is enjoying his rare Saturday off but sawing logs on the couch.  I think I may try to catch a few winks myself.

I am, for the first time in a while, feeling rather contented.  Maybe it’s the yoga, maybe it’s the endorphins, maybe it is the fact that it is in the 60’s here…..who knows….and I am not going to look a gift horse in the mouth.  By the way, who came up with that little gem?  What is “a gift horse” and why exactly shouldn’t I look in it’s mouth?  Someone tell me please!!!

A year ago:

My hair was a different color
I was 20+ lbs heaver
I was heartbroken after a failed IVF
I was giving up on myself
I was not happy with myself or anyone else
I was hard to live with
I never thought we would get pregnant
I was partying too much
I was working full time
We had more money
I was in the hospital with OHSS
Our only egg failed
I stopped believing